Dear Blog,
I feel like a sad sad individual when I write out my problems for the whole of cyberspace to see but it makes me feel better so shut up self-conscious. Sparkle (mentioned previously in my blogs) has taken a hop skip and a jump into my heart. Wow that was lame..
The only problem is now I'm taking LI (love interest) to the formal who I now realise is a massive asshole with mummy issues. Wow, can i pick em?
With the prospect of Sparkle slipping further and further away I have been overcome by a sinking feeling. To describe it accurately it's kind of like your whole body is slowly melting into the ground below. I actually don't have a proper name for it (it wasn't in any of my primary school books: happy, sad, angry, no horrible apocalyptic sinking feeling) so i'll just call it 'the sinking feeling'.
So right now i'm sitting alone in my room desperately needing a Sex and the City marathon, listening to Death Cab for Cutie, pathetically wishing my life was different. I even considered praying but I'm sure anyone up there has better things to do than watch me mope myself to death.
Apart from general romantic misery, my school life isn't exactly at it's peak at the moment either. Every year I encounter 'the rut' or the period where I physically can't make myself do work. It's like my brain (bless it) is on strike and only thinks of facebook, msn, and youtube. Now is that time for me and frankly it couldn't come at a worse time. Now, when I can invest all my negative mopey energy into work I am physically unable to.
This, forces me to confront my feelings and sit here listening to crappy emo music while wishing I was watching Sex and the City. Great.
Wow what a great weekend. It has a little bit of everything: tears, love, and emo music. Awesome.
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